Ram Gopal Varma on Sridevi’s death: I hate God for killing her and hate Sridevi for dying


My journey to Sridevi started when I was preparing for my debut film ‘Shiva’. I love you Sri wherever you are… and I will always love you. Throughout the making of Kshana Kshanam,I just couldn’t take my eyes off her charm, her beauty,her personality and her demeanour was a new discovery for me. I used to so desperately hope to catch a glimpse of her as she went in or out of her house. I say stupid because I believed that no man made house deserved to house that beauty called SRIDEVI. While she has many hits to her credit, one of the directors whose career got a breakthrough because of Sridevi was Ram Gopal Varma. Behind that wall she maintains her dignity and her self-respect and she never lets anyone inside. Then I saw her various other films,all of which constantly created a higher bench mark of both her talent and her beauty ..To me she looked like some being who has come from some other world in the outer space as a favour to bless us for a little while for all the good we might have done in this world. so I was sitting in her living room in candle light along with the producer waiting for the angel to appear and my heart was thumping like mad. She was like a creation of God which he does whenever he is in a very special mood as a very very special gift to mankind. Finally she came and sat in the living room, just said a mandatory few lines that she would very much like to work with me and then she left for Mumbai. I hate her for making me realise that she too is finally only just a human being. Kshana Kshanam was intended by me as a love letter to her. ——- Ram Gopal Varma
 
Read Ram Gopal Varma’s tweets for Sridevi here:

Never hated God more than today ..The bastard just extinguished the brightest of lights ..my heart goes out to Boney Kapoor
— Ram Gopal Varma (@RGVzoomin) February 24, 2018

Is Sridevi really dead? Banks, Govt offices, Schools, Colleges everything in town closed as everyone wanted to see Sridevi. Though she is no longer there, we her directors fortunately have her captured as a goddess of beauty in our cameras and our cinematic angel has now just become a divine angel
I thank God for creating Sridevi and I thank Louis Lumiere for creating the movie camera for giving us an opportunity to contain her forever. The director soon wrote a letter for the demised soul in which he mentioned, “My journey to Sridevi started when I was preparing for my debut film ‘Shiva’. I hate that her heart too has to beat to live. I have a habit of constantly dreaming and waking up every once in a while in the night to check out my cell phone and I suddenly saw a message that Sridevi is no more ..I thought that either it’s a nightmare or a hoax and I went back to sleep ..An hour later I woke up to check and there were around 50 messages informing me of the same
Back in the times when I was in engineering college in Vijayawada, I happened to see her first telugu film “padaharella vayasu”.. I used to walk from Nagarjuna’s office in Chennai to a neighbouring street where Sridevi used to live and I used to just stand and watch Sridevi’s house from outside her gate.”
He continued, “I just couldn’t believe that the goddess of beauty lives in that stupid looking house. The way Sridevi sat in front of me in the candle light got imprinted in my mind like an exquisite painting and with her image completely filling both my mind and my heart I started writing Kshana Kshanam. But sadly no such thing ever happened. There were about 50 tough guys along with a 100 strong police force who used to continuously guard her. I just couldn’t believe that the goddess of beauty lives in that stupid looking house. I HATE GOD FOR KILLING SRIDEVI AND I HATE SRIDEVI FOR DYING. Also during the course of working with her and observing her technique of acting I began to understand more and more as a director about the nuances of performances and characterizations because for me she formed the epitome of cinematic acting
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She had an invisible wall around her and she does not let anyone cross that. Also read | Top 10 performances by Sridevi
And then after ‘Shiva’ released and became a big hit,a producer came to me and asked if I was interested in doing a film with Sridevi. I hate that,she too has a heart which can just stop like anybody else’s. naa kompa munchinaavuro pic.twitter.com/F0BHmWJ9xD
— Ram Gopal Varma (@RGVzoomin) February 25, 2018
The director has also worked with Sridevi in Kshana Kshanam and in the letter he writes down the experience of working with her in his second film. pic.twitter.com/agH3MrZTTS
— Ram Gopal Varma (@RGVzoomin) February 25, 2018

Kshanakshanam shooting lo oka adbhutamaina expression ichchinanduku thana kaallaki dannam peduthunte addukuntunna Venkatesh pic.twitter.com/79sRBfBuBU
— Ram Gopal Varma (@RGVzoomin) February 25, 2018

Amma brahmma devudo ..neekem poyye kaalamochchiro .. I was awestruck with her Beauty and I walked out of the theatre in a daze thinking that she cannot be a real person and she has to be some fantasy form who somehow has taken a human shape. See photos: Sridevi dead: A pictorial tribute to the Bollywood diva
I wrote Kshana Kshanam with the one and only purpose so as to impress Sridevi. Whosoever gave that title was not at all wrong because no matter what the frame was, Sridevi stood out and etched her own space in the memory of the audience. Everytime she was appearing and disappearing in a flash and the director in me started slow motioning her and running her backward and forward for my visual pleasure. He was furious, emotional and expressed his emotions on social media. I will die to just see her, let alone make a film with her!”He arranged a meeting with her and took me to meet her at that very same house where I used to stand outside the gate and stare. “Is Sridevi really dead? I said “Are you mad or what? I continued talking to her mother with enormous respect and awe because she actually gave birth to Sridevi. I have never seen more of a super star and now she just got extinguished
Sridevi is the most beautiful and the most sensuous woman,God ever created and I think he creates such exquisite pieces of art like her only once in a thousand years. I still can’t believe that she is no more and I am lying in bed writing about my memories of her
I so hope I am still having a bad dream,but I know I am not
(Picture credit: Express Photo)
I hate Sridevi. pic.twitter.com/TNhllCImRk
— Ram Gopal Varma (@RGVzoomin) February 25, 2018

One of the main reasons for me coming into films was my desire to see her up close in real ..Kshanakshanam film was my love letter to Sridevi http://t.co/hsxyNeOmRR pic.twitter.com/feSm4ErxCG
— Ram Gopal Varma (@RGVzoomin) February 25, 2018

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— Ram Gopal Varma (@RGVzoomin) February 25, 2018

Me and Sridevi with Lord Balaji pic.twitter.com/C2harKgHkk
— Ram Gopal Varma (@RGVzoomin) February 25, 2018

Aey Balaji why did u take only her away and left me here? I used to so desperately hope to catch a glimpse of her as she went in or out of her house. I hate that I lived to see the messages informing me of her death
I hate God for killing her
And I hate Sridevi for dying. When we were at location we used to know that Sridevi started from her bungalow to come to location because we used to see a column of dust travelling towards us from the distance. We were shooting for the climax in Nandyal for Kshana Kshanam and the whole town of Nandyal came to a standstill when they came to know that Sridevi was in town. For all the latest Entertainment News, download Indian Express App
© IE Online Media Services Pvt Ltd But sadly no such thing ever happened.”
Here’s Ram Gopal Varma’s ode to Sridevi. I used to walk from Nagarjuna’s office in Chennai to a neighbouring street where Sridevi used to live and I used to just stand and watch Sridevi’s house from outside her gate. (Picture credit: Express Photo)
Her mother told us she was busy packing as she was about to catch a flight to go to Mumbai. Can somebody wake me up and tell me that it’s just a bad dream?🙏🙏🙏
— Ram Gopal Varma (@RGVzoomin) February 25, 2018

Can somebody tell me how in hell can she just go away like that??? 2018-02-25T10:05:32+00:00″>
Updated: February 25, 2018 10:05 am

Ram Gopal Varma pays tribute to Sridevi through a letter. Can somebody wake me up and tell me that it’s just a bad dream?” He tweeted. I say stupid because I believed that no man made house deserved to house that beauty called SRIDEVI. She stayed in a traveller’s bungalow in Nandyal and at a little distance i was staying in another bungalow. At night we went and as luck would have it there was a power cut in her house. There used to be a crowd of atleast 20,000 people around her bungalow throughout the night just staring at it. We are the only ones who should be doing that for what you did to us! pic.twitter.com/CQkp00z60Y
— Ram Gopal Varma (@RGVzoomin) February 25, 2018

I HATE GOD FOR KILLING SRIDEVI and I HATE SRIDEVI FOR DYING and here is the reason http://t.co/hsxyNeOmRR
— Ram Gopal Varma (@RGVzoomin) February 25, 2018

Why are you crying Sridevi? The director, who helmed Sridevi starrers Kshana Kshanam and Govinda Govinda, was devastated by the news of the legendary actor’s passing away. The dust was due to the thousands of people running behind her car.